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I'm Confused

Hey people, yeah i'm back to blogging because I've so much on my mind now. 'A's round the corner and I just can't focus, it's so irritating. And with the stupid additional problems with that guy that I kinda find irritating now, I just can't take it anymore.

Sigh, I just don't know what to do right now. Today, we went out to have dinner, and it turned out alright. As usual, we were talking happily. Before I went into the house, he gave me a kiss, then I heard my house door open so he split and I went home. Called him when he was in the LRT after that cos' I find it quite weird for us to part so abruptly.

Regretted calling him man, we started to talk about us and things turned kinda ugly. He started to say that he would sms other girls. My heart kinda sank but I felt he was joking like always just to spite me and see my reaction. So I jokingly said," Since you already have no feelings for me, then lets break up." He nonchalantly said,"Ok, if that's what you want." I was very sad. I really don't know what to do. I just said,"I'm angry and i'm gonna hang up." He said,"Ok, go talk to the guys online and I shall go sms other girls." I just hung up.

What does he want from me? I've been treating him so well. He knows it and why does he do this to me. I just hate him now. I've been wearing the necklace that he gave me on my birthday and had never took it off. Well, I just took it off just now and locked it away in my cupboard. I'm sick and tired of his games. I love him so but he does this to me. So unfair right.

Anyway, I gotta study hard for my 'A's. Have a feeling I won't do well at all. Wish someone would just knock some sense into me to start studying. I wouldn't want to go overseas to study. Just want to get into U. Is that too much to ask?

Ty, stop bothering me for now, and I'll stop bothering you. I hate you.... at least for now...

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